Third time time I think

I dreamed of sucking someone's dick. I have dreamed about it before. But this time, there's is cum that I felt. I felt that I'm really sucking dick. Though I never done it in real life yet.

I dreamed a dream

OMG! I didn't thought it was a dream. It was so realistic. He is Onew from SHINee. This is how my dream went:

I was walking in a mall and suddenly saw him behind the window of a gym (Fitness First?). I went inside inside to greet him and take a picture. We chatted and danced. The next thing I know is we where in our house and introduced him to my family.

I really love that dream. I'm so kinikilig. Grabe! Although he is not my crush (Key), I really appreciated that wonderful experience.

Past and Present

I had my first love when I was in high school (the Polo Ravales aura-alike). I can still remember the feeling I felt the first time I met him. I still peek at his friendster and facebook profiles secretly. I actually saved his pictures whenever he has new ones. I think I still have special feelings for him.

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I met a new guy in my college. He showed me a very arrogant attitude. That made me hate him so much until I saw him performing in a theater. He was awsome that night. Girls were shivering for him. It made me think that night whether to congatulate him or not after that show. I tried not greet him, but I noticed him looking at me. I guess he was waiting for me to greet him. Until I got home, I never smiled to him.

Days passed, he surprised me a lot. He was the one who greets me first. All I can do is greet him back, make a smile when I turn my back. I think he wants to catch my attention. Or not? Is it only my illusion? Should I let go of the past and face what is in the present?